“You’re too sensitive”, “you’re so emotional”- sounds familiar? I’m a highly sensitive person.
Being sensitive comes with its highs and lows…just like every other thing in life. The lows can be overwhelming but I’m learning to accept the things I can’t change, work on becoming better and focus on the highs. For a long time, I really hated myself for being highly sensitive. I didn’t understand why I felt everything so deeply, why I lived with all my senses on high alert. I struggled so much because I felt “too much” for everyone around. I felt I had to apologize for my emotions, that I was the problem and my thoughts aren’t valid. I constantly had to make sure I wasn’t insane.
Being highly sensitive, I… Have an overactive mind never sleeps so yes, insomnia is my BFF. Horror movies aren’t for me Those little things that annoy you like someone chewing carelessly, annoys me even more. Desire a deeper connection with others but also have anxiety about it. Enjoy being alone as I don’t have to explain myself to anyone. Am mostly misunderstood. Deeply analyze everything Get overwhelmed easily. Love being free.
Get emotionally invested in so many things like Tv shows! (I’m still not over Wes dying in HTGAWM, lol).
Am highly intuitive which I’m thankful for but, really stresses me out most times
Struggle with taking care of my body (healthwise).
Have a love/hate relationship with this thing called CHANGE.
Am very imaginative, lol.
From all these things listed above, you can pick the good and the bad. I call it the “highs and lows” but, I love and I’m thankful for most of them.
I’m learning that being an HSP doesn’t mean I’m emotionally weak or generally weak, I’m not broken, that even though I feel misunderstood and isolated in my thoughts, what matters is understanding myself, accepting and loving myself. To stop running away from these things but to control these feelings instead. To stop apologizing for feeling hurt when my reasons are valid and control how I express myself. To create healthy boundaries and not high walls.
I can’t help that I feel deeply but I can control it. I overly crave meaningful relationships as I like stability and that’s okay. I wouldn’t change anything about these feelings as this way, I know what I want.
I’m learning to accept that I am different. I experience the world differently and that’s awesome.
God has made us fearfully and wonderfully. Therefore, we are not weak, we are not flawed. When you start embracing the unique you, you become more confident and begin to do extraordinary things.
If you relate one way or another to this post- cheers to accepting who you are and loving yourself, cheers to making changes only to become a better version of yourself, cheers to surrounding yourself with the people that are willing to stay with you for who you are and not trying to change you, cheers to not feeling broken or weak, cheers to more valid emotions!
We all have something we struggle with, you are not alone 🙂
You guys know my posts get so long when I expose these emotions, lol. It’s my birthday in TWO dayss!!! WHOOP WHOOP!!!